A Mind Filled With Memories Weigh Me Down

So, lately I've just been thinking about a few things in my life that have been bothering me. The main thing that I can't seem to get off my mind is how I haven't been that good of a friend. I know that some of you will say, "Don't say that, you're a good friend." or something else, but I feel that I can do so much better. I want to be able to do all that I can for my friends, whether it be to comfort them, make them feel happy, talk with them, listen to them, help them with problems, and all of that stuff. I mean, I feel that I've been able to do some of these things for my friends, but...there's one person, who I've failed at being a good friend and example to them...To this day I feel so guilty and ashamed of how I abandoned them just because I was afraid of being judged, and I can't believe I did so, because they really were one of my dearest friends. I honestly want to regain my friendship with this person, but I'm afraid...afraid that they won't forgive me for the things I've done, which I'm pretty sure they won't...If I could, I would go back in time and do anything that was possible to stop me from making one of the biggest mistakes in my life...

Anways, sorry about this rant. I've just been needing to get this out of me for a while, so yeah. Just ignore it. Just me rambling.

Just a hopeless dreamer

So on Tuesday, May 12 2009, I went to the Keane concert at Kingsbury Hall with my friends Riley, Andie, and Meghan. It was a fabulous concert and was so much fun! We had such a good time singing out our hearts at the concert. So, here are just a few of the many pictures I took! :D

This was the opening act, Mat Kearney, and I really like him! He has good music and a good voice! <3

And here's the lovely Keane! Oh man, they were so awesome! Especially the pianist on the right. The whole entire concert, he was rocking out while he played the piano. He is definitely one talented man.

Costa Rica

Our wonderful beach near the condos

Black Sand beach

Riley, Andie, Josie, Meghan, and me at the waterfalls

Jumping off an edge into the pool

Me and cheeto, the bird that became our friend

Standing in front of a sign. How exciting

One of the many monkeys we saw at Monkey Beach

Manuel Antonio beach a.k.a Monkey beach

I climbed out onto this log which was like 10 feet above a pool in the waterfalls we visited

My friends and I doing a transmutation circle. (It's from FMA)

Having a contest on who could draw something first before the waves came at the black sand beach

It's true

Here I am trying fish, and I actually liked it! Wowza

Riley, Meghan, Andie, and me sitting on a lovely hammock

Our first breakfast in Costa Rica or at least for Meghan and me.

The view of the beach from our condo.

Some crocodiles we got see from up on a bridge. They were cool :)

This is us after coming home to a snowy Utah. :(

Hey everyone. So, as you all know I went on a trip to Costa Rica with some of my friends. We had such a good time, and I really think it was an amazing experience. I feel so privileged that I was able to go. Anyways, I'm just going to put up some pictures for those people in my family who wanted to see some pictures. And for all of you family members, I have a lot more pictures, so if you want to see more, just tell me and I'll send you more. :)

Just Believe

One thing that I just want to say is that I love the movie, Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium. Tonight, I was trying to find something to do, so I decided to watch it. For being such a simple, cute movie, I noticed so many deep things in it that really touched me. And for some reason, I was crying at all of these different parts. I'm grateful that there are at least some movies in this world that are just filled with uplifting things and make you feel like you should become a better person. I truly love that movie and the wonderful messages I received from it.

Here's just some quotes from that movie that I really like.

"There are a million things one might do with a block of wood. But what do you think might happen if someone, just once, believed it in?"

"Your life is an occasion. Rise to it."

"All stories, even the ones we love, must eventually come to an end and when they do, it's only an opportunity for another story to begin."

"We breathe. We pulse. We regenerate. Our hearts beat. Our minds create. Our souls ingest. 37 seconds, well used, is a lifetime." 

Sorry about that rant. I just needed to vent, so no worries.

Nobody said it was easy

Lately, I've been thinking about life. There's always the good and easy parts where you wish they could last forever, but there's also the bad and hard parts. I think the hardest part in my life is watching the ones that I love so dearly struggle in their lives with their challenges and/or stray away from the righteous path and do things that are obviously stupid, but they do it anyways. It just makes me so sad and pained to see that no matter what I do for this loved one, their mind is set on doing things that'll just ruin their life. I wish that I could just take their hand and lead them back to the light, but that's just not how life works. I know that through our tribulations we'll gain patience and hope, but sometimes it's just hard to get through the moments. I just really wish that this person would just listen and come back.

Look at the stars, look how they shine for you

I really liked how Riley did this, so I thought it would be fun to do. :)

"Make all you can, save all you can, give all you can." - John Wesley

"Make the best use of what is in your power, and take the rest as it happens." - Epictetus

"Person to person, moment to moment, as we love, we change the world." - Samahria Lyte Kaufman

"You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through." - Rosalynn Carter

"Laughter is by definition healthy." - Doris Lessing

THE NEXT AMERICAN IDOL

I couldn't help putting this up. So, Lindsey and I were listening to Disturbia and suddenly North started singing along. He then kept singing it a couple of times later, and this was when he was finished taking a bath. He is such a goof ball!